What Happened?

   Third Quarter did not turn out as I wanted it to. When I found out that I was a Director's Lister, I promised myself that I would do my best to maintain that position. But then, promises are meant to be broken. I knew that my 1.490 GWA keeps me near the DL boundary, at first I cared, but it did not last that long.

   I did try my best on the first weeks of the Third Quarter. I read more, I studied more, I worked more. But soon, it seemed as though I got tired and returned to my old hobbies. I became too confident that it would be easier to maintain my position once I got in the list, but of course it wasn't. Our adviser had warned us to do well during the third quarter because it would be very important for our final grades. I believed in myself too much, thus not being able to do what I had to do. And that resulted to a decline in my grades. 

   I never expected my reaction when it was confirmed that I was not a Director's Lister anymore. I knew with my performance that I wasn't gonna make it. I had prepared myself for it. But when it did come, I wasn't able to control myself. At first I tried to smile about it but then I realized that I was one of the reasons why a plan had failed. Room 205 had a goal: to create a record where all the occupants of the room are Director's Listers. I got disappointed of myself and at the same time ashamed that I had let so many people down. We had almost made it. But because of me, we did not. 

   I'm not going to promise anything this Fourth Quarter except that I'd be doing my best to return. I do not want to disappoint too many people again. I'll try to  my requirements on time and study for the quizzes and tests. I will prove people that I can get myself back onstage. I'll show people that they weren't wrong to believe that I could still do it.